Neat cartoon of me by artist Dennis Rano, (visit link to see Dennis's cartoon of me) who has done many caricutures of UFOlogists. Thank you so much Dennis, what a neat little surprise!

MIBS and Reptilians!

John Rhodes will be the guest tonight on Coast to Coast, discussing MIBS and Reptilians, two of my favorite topics!

UFOs: The Ghosts of Dead Test Pilots

Numbers on CBS is one of my favorite programs; but when it comes to fringe subjects like UFOs, the paranormal or conspiracies, the writers and producers fall into the lazy, smirking trap of making the so-called believers stereotypes, and generally dismissing Fortean subjects all together. Last night's episode was no different; the plot was an interesting one, about weird beams from the sky killing people. Who, or what, could be the cause? UFOs from outer space of course, according to the geeky, bordering on fanatic, UFO seekers investigating the abandoned military facility where the beams were manifesting.

Both UFO geeks and FBI agents casually throw about various theories for the unexplained beams. The UFO nerds are serious, the FBI agents treat such ideas with expected disdain. But both toss out supposed known explanations, such as aliens, covert military ops, or "the ghosts of dead test pilots." Sometimes it's "alien ghosts." This explanation -- ghosts of dead test pilots and/or aliens -- was mentioned several times during the episode. (At one point one of the characters calls Agent Epps, their boss, "Spooky Mulder.") It was so ridiculous, just hearing "ghost of dead test pilots" once, but several times? I wondered: where did the writers get such an idea, and why perpetuate this particular little idea? Mass culture is familiar with UFOs, aliens, abductions and probes, thanks to those cliches that have made their way into sit-coms, commercials, and all kinds of media. Ghosts are popular too, but aside from Jim Marrs' Alien Ghosts at Roswell which is too esoteric for the mainstream, the theory of dead test pilot's ghosts, or alien ghosts, being responsible for UFOs is pretty much non-existent. So I came away with the only thing I could: the people repsnile for the Numbers episode about "alien ghosts/pilots" was a bit of disinformation.

On the other hand, the character of the agent from "Department 44" of the Pentagon was great; very MIB like, in a humorous way. I suppose that could also be criticized; like the movie Men in Black, presenting the MIB phenomena as humorous even while heroic, characters, serves as another bit of misinformation. The esoteric, sinister and non-human aspect of MIBS is ignored.

An Intent Experiment: Retrieivng Missing Time

Probably inspired in part by the dream post the other day, I've decided to experiment with the intent of remembering. An attempt to retrieve the period of time missing in my (our) missing time episode so many years ago, when I saw the orange orb that seemed to respond to my thoughts and follow us home. (I know, it screams "I Was Chased By A Flying Saucer!") Hypnosis might seem faster, more efficient and just more reasonable all around, but, aside from the praticall matter of money (and how do we explain that to the insurance company?) this is at least equally as interesting. It's also a baby step, maybe, towards undergoing hypnosis.

I'm still out on the whole hypnosis thing. Even if I I'm telling the truth as I know it, is that still the truth? That's one of the big questions I have surrounding this whole thing. I may think I really saw aliens, was taken aboard a craft, (or, not) but how could I ever know that that is what really did happen? Corroboration would give some support to my experience; if my husband has the same story then that would verify the veracity of our stories. Still...I wonder. Maybe it's just what we were led to believe happened; it doesn't mean it did happen.

Then of course, there's the question of: why am I so reticent about not accepting Alien Abduction Scenario 101?

There are other questions that aren't as fun or interesting. For example, what if we both just went mentally off the rails for a few hours? Or someone slipped drugs into our iced teas? Or it was just so damn long ago, nothing at all happened in any way? Come to think of it, when I look at those possibilities, they seem as ridiculous as alien abductions.

I think something very strange happened, and even paranormal-mystical-alien related. But I don't think it was alien abduction in fact, I don't think alien abductions are literally alien abductions at all. But then there are the damn edges of memory, like the paralyzing, terrifying dreams I had after the orb sightingand missing time events. Why that particular scenario?

Just keeps going around and around.

I think what I'm doing is PAAAR: Passive-Aggressive Alien Abduction Retrieval. (I made that up.) It can't be true, it's just too ridiculous, even while I maintain there are most certainly aliens walking amongst us. I don't want to go through hypnosis (yet) (maybe) for a variety of reasons. I wouldn't trust what came out of any session anyway. Context and coincidences are intriguing as hell, but what do they prove? And how much can be trusted?

And then there's my spouse, who has gone through the same missing time episodes as I, and his own body of UFO related experiences. I feel very strongly there is a trust here and a responsibility; if I go traipsing off to some hynosis, whatever gets uncovered means he has to deal. Maybe he isn't ready to deal. I can't just throw all this in his face. Something like this has to be mutual, embarked upon together.

I think I made a subconscious pact with myself that I'll get to the bottom of this before I die. I have a ways to go yet; I plan on living until I'm at least 95, which gives me a good forty years or so to play with. I'm just taking my time.

Post script: So I just flat out asked my spouse how he feels about going through hypnosis in the context of our UFO and missing time experiences, he said he "supposes" he's for it.

In the meantime, I'll continue to explore my dream time.

On Saucer Sightings: The Letter P in a Triangle: Gift From the Aliens

New entry on my blog Saucer Sightings about a dream aboard a craft, and a gift from aliens, during a period of UFO activity in L.A.

An Oregon Abduction

My latest for Trickster's Realm on Tim Binnall's BOA: An Oregon Abduction about a woman I met years ago at a local UFO workshop, and her incredible story in the Gold HIll, Oregon area.

Rest in Peace Mac Tonnies

I was shocked to hear that UFO and Fortean researcher and writer Mac Tonnies has passed away. I send prayers to his family and friends. . . read what Jeremy Vaeni and others have written on UFO Magazine's blog, and Mac's friend Nick Refern on UFO Mystic. Rest in peace Mac.

Halloween Owls

Owls are the mondo mysterioso symbol of UFOs, so I'd thought I share some vintage Halloween images that have owls in them. I particularly like the one with the devils dancing beneath the moon and a giant white owl; seems fitting for esoterica, including UFOs.

Redfern On AIr Now

short notice, but Nick Redfern is on Strange Frequencies right now -- listen live here, or check out the archive info.

Naveed's Realm: Oregon UFO Wave

Naveed's Realm discusses a current Oregon UFO "wave:" What is going on: Oregon UFO Wave. I commented over there that, at least with local (Eugene-Springfield area) news, they don't seem to comment on UFO stories anymore. I have no official data but it seems that they've stopped since 9/11. (I've written before about one witness who contacted me about five years ago; he saw a UFO, along with several others, photographed and taped it. Yet no one from media wanted to hear about it.) Either way, it does seem that, overall, for the past couple of years, the nation, if not the world, has been in a UFO flap, and that includes Oregon.

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Was there a "third, lost" Trent UFO photo?

Water on the Moon

My eighty-one year old mother has her own blog; "why? . . . thoughts of an angry old woman" where she rants mostly about politics. (I actually run the blog for her; every word on there is hers and hers alone, but I post her items for her since she's limited to web t.v. which, apparently, sucks.) Mom believes aliens and UFOs exist, though she isn't involved in any kind of research or read anything on the subject. She's had her own sighting, that I wrote about on Saucer Sightings, as well as her own theories, one being that she is absolutely convinced there are aliens on the moon.

Her recent items for her blog include the following, about the discovery of water on the moon. It isn't about UFOs, exo-politics or disclosure, just a short mini-rant on the discovery, and humanity's response:

One of the more disturbing things on the news.....the discovery of water on the moon. With that announcement came the statement that"we could build factories there to extract that water and then could use the Moon as a base to further our efforts to reach other planets." Apparently it is not enough that mankind has despoiled this planet....we now have our sights set on the ruination of the Universe.

A scary response, for sure. We can endlessly speculate about ET on the moon and entertain all kinds of scenarios where aliens thwart our greedy,stupid and oafish efforts. Or just pray that common sense will rule and not the Dr. Evil Cabal.

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Was there a "lost" Trent photo? Read here and find out!

Mac Tonnies on Coast to Coast tonight, and The Trickster. . .

Tonight's guest on Coast to Coast: Mac Tonnies.

Speaking of C2C, I listened to just a few minutes of last night's program, and found last night's guest Christopher O'Brien extremely interesting. (Who mentioned Tonnies by the way, in terms of researchers, thinkers and writers considering the alien-ETH vs. Trickster/Something else idea.) O'Brien has a new book: Stalking the Trickster, which of course I will have to read. (I wonder why O'Brien didn't mention George Hansen and his work, The Trickster and the Paranormal? Maybe he did and I didn't catch it.) O'Brien, who has been investigating UFO, cattle mutes and other UAD's, high strangeness in general, etc. in Colorado, is the author of several articles on these events as well as three books about the strange happenings in Colorado's San Luis Valley. O'Brien, who has had his own UFO experiences, has come to a place where he thinks much more is going on than a simplistic ET explanation.

Round and round we go it seems, for no one can dismiss the Trickster behavior in so much of UFO and other weird areas (Fortean, paranormal, etc.) and yet... and yet. Isn't is possible it's both? Maybe I want to cling to this idea because I find both possibilities equally intriguing: space beings from Mars, and ultra/inter dimensional, terrestrial other . . .

Or, it could be some of the aliens are capable of manifesting such behaviors so ancient and convoluted they appear to be beyond what's now become a jaded explanation for some: the ET. I think some consider ET to be advanced technologically, but don't go beyond that. Aliens, some of them anyway, could very well be exceedingly capable of performing all kinds of feats that appear almost magical to us, and so, we call them angels, or demons, or Tricksters, or inter-dimensional whatevers. And maybe some of the ETs are all of those things, and it's all in the naming. Angels and demons are ET, or the aliens are angels and demons? Same thing, different names, different human created constructs made to control and indoctrinate. Meanwhile, the ETs/angels/demons are doing their thing, and they don't care what we call them.

Ancient time warping groovy effects inter-dimensional, or aliens from space? Why couldn't the space-man from Mars be perfectly capable of performing tricks for our entertainment? Why force the space being into a box; aliens are supposed to act this way, and if they don't, they're something else. Why do we think we can figure them out, predict their behaviors, assume their motivations, presume their cultures and their abilities?

It's possible some ETs mimic other non-human behaviors: ghosts, or who knows what. Fairies, angels, gods. . . an alien very well might want to confuse us, or maybe, it's just playing around. They could know how to manipulate things that stress our credibility: we can accept there are aliens on Mars (or wherever) and can travel in UFOs, but they can't visit us on the astral plane. When that happens, we shift from alien to something else; angel, god, ultra terrestrial, etc. Maybe it's as simple as it seems: aliens can manipulate a lot more than we think.

Often when we talk about ET we present it as if there is just one kind of ET. "ET" we say, as if it's a single entity. It seems pretty obvious there are many kinds of ET (Dr. Greer's didactic list of specific numbers excluded) and some of these aliens are advanced not just technologically, but in so many other ways as well.

As some of you know by now, my husband Jim had a heart atttack last Friday. It was a biggie, and scary, but the prognosis is good. We're home now from the hospital, he's recovering, and I am so very grateful for all the healing thoughts and prayers from so many of you. Jim has told me, as I sat across from him in the hospital room with my laptop, reading him messages of support, that the numerous messages have helped him emotionally. In Jim's case, he went from being an old hippie anti-doctor/hospital Western medicine kind of guy -- who hadn't been to a doctor in 30 years -- to being hooked up to machines, in a hospital bed for four and a half days, prodded, poked, and shot full of medicines, many of which Jim said he'd never take in a million years. Now he's "whatever, do it" --- mortality punching you in the face can do that to a person.

Thank you everyone for your good thoughts.

From Hidden Experience: "five owls"

Another poetically moving piece from Mike Clelland's Hidden Experience blog, this one another entry about the appearance of owls. I like this blog because it's very personal, and the author seems connected with nature and signals around him -- listens to them -- as go-betweens and guides from one world of awareness to another. As Mike has written in the "about this blog" section:

Events can be hard to recall. Especially when these memories seem to stretch my psyche in ways that can be distressing. If these memories and events are just tiny clues, what do they point to?

I feel strongly that something is going on. But what that might be, seems beyond my ability to solve

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I think for many of us with experiences of the UFO/paranormal/Fortean kind, these clues, signs, messages, synchronicities . . . act as reminders and guides to these experiences. Often something triggers some nagging feeling or bit of memory or a dream or something that I know has to do with "the other" but not sure why, or how, not just yet. And this absolutely includes UFOs.

That is why I am always urging others in the UFO field to include these reports and types of witnesses and accounts instead of rejecting them as nonsense or irrelevant. It's also why I am so appreciative of those who, like Mike, put themselves out there and so willingly share their experiences. A big part of this, I think, is that we just can't help ourselves but also, we hope that in our sharing of seemingly unrelated, vague, so-called "so what" moments we'll find that someone else knows what we're talking about. I can't speak for Clelland or anyone else of course and maybe I'm presuming much here; but I do see connections with these kinds of things. It's like looking at some types of art or listening to poetry or jazz; an abstraction or symbolism that doesn't, on the surface, "mean" much but yet resonates with the viewer anyway.


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New posts at Oregon L.O.W.F.I.

A few new posts at Oregon L.O.W.F.I. Be sure to check out all the other blogs at LOWFI, like Adam Gorightly's, Lesley's, Andrew Colvin, Iggy, sMiles Lewis, etc.